Dear God,
My life is not going as I mapped out and requested. You have some explaining to do. Right now it's pretty crazy chaotic and I'm feeling like I'm swimming in the deep end with no floaties. Due to this chaos, I feel like I have lost out on some important things during my baby's first 6 months. Here are the things I want to get back:
1. My baby's baptism. We had it all planed out. We had at least one of the three Godparents in Texas. We could have had a nice quiet little ceremony. My baby was the appropriate Lutheran baptism approved age at three months old. But instead, I was put in the hospital with diverticulitis. Meaning one of my daughter's spiritual rites was put on hold because I didn't eat enough fiber. Awesome.
2. My first date after baby. My husband was looking good. I was looking good. I had wine. He had rum and coke. We ate a delicious meal of calamari, tuna, and mahi mahi...which was then promptly projectile vomited multiple times throughout the night. Food poisoning. Awesome.
3. My baby's first 6 months. I was supposed to take cute pictures with a decorative chalkboard marking each month of her life. I was supposed to take professional pictures of her dressed in tutus with a tiny gold glittered doily paper crown on her head. Instead we have been battling constant wheezing and sniffling. It's been a barrage of doctor's visits with a pseudo sometimes healthy baby. When she is healthy, it's fleeting. Not enough time for glittered doily paper crowns. When she's sick it's constant breathing treatments and asthma medicine and antibiotics and ENT doctors and chest x-rays. No decorative chalk boards for us. Awesome.
So God, help me figure all this out. It just seems like a lot right now.
-Mal
